Good morning all. It has been quite some time since last I posted on Ashley and my blog. It is not that I have not wanted to, simply that I have not known what to write. As I sit here this morning sipping my coffee next to my new, and already faithful, dog, I struggle with the fact that in an hourish I am off to work again. Since arriving at Vandenberg, I have been assigned to work yet another job where my days mostly consist of sitting and attempting to look busy so as to stay out of trouble. I feel like this is not the way hings are supposed to be. I have now been in the Air Force for a year and three months, and most of that time has been spent twiddling my thumbs waiting for something to happen. 6 months waiting to come on active duty. 9 months waiting for flight school. 2.5 months waiting to move to CA. And now 4 monthsish waiting to start missile training. Some days I really struggle with this. I wonder why I've even bothered. Why does God have me here, and why did he guide me down this road just to have me sit and wait? Why not direct me to be a teacher, or a missionary, or a pastor instead? Why a military man who spends his time trying to look busy.
Well let's be honest...I don't have the answers to these questions. Whether I like it or not, God has me sitting here again. He has had me sit for months, and despite what I may think is best for me, this is assuredly what is best for me. When I stop and think about the last few months...and the waiting...I think I do understand some of the reasons I have been made to wait. 6 months waiting...time to build a stronger relationship with the woman I was bound to marry. 9 months waiting...time to plan a wedding, get married, and have a honeymoon. 2.5 months...allowed me to arrive in CA late enough that I would not get bumped up in classes and be able to go to Europe like we so very much want to. 4 months waiting....we'll see. In the scheme of the next 40 years...or however much I work...these few months are really nothing. I am simply still young and impatient. Maybe that's what I'm supposed to learn.
Whatever the reasons...in the end I still have to go to work. Ciao.
1 comment:
Thanks for sharing your thoughts Zach! I know there is always a tension in the waiting...but when you actually spell out what God has done in those times of waiting, it's pretty incredible! Just goes to show that our timing is not His timing. Love you and I'm proud that you have continued walking faithfully even when you felt like you were simply waiting.
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