One of the things I have found really difficult in being here at Laughlin is being overwhelmed with the feeling of uselessness. Though I do know that in nine-months time I will be beginning UPT, and in doing so truly beginning to pursue my career, I feel now as though I am in purgatory. And that is really hard for me. As most of you know, having a mission is essential for me to be content. That mission can be anything really. Here I have thus far felt as though I have no mission at all. As I have been struggling with this I have realized that the reality is quite different from how it feels. I do have a mission. In fact, I believe I have several missions. I have the mission to be patient and to wait. Though it seems like my entire life has been waiting for pilot school, that time is almost done. It is my job to wait for Sept 8 to come. Tied in to this is the mission to be faithful. I have a mission to be faithful to my God, my family, my friends, and my country. God has me here waiting, and I will do my best at everything I can while I wait. If that means keeping the snacks stocked, then that is what I will do. If that means sitting and watching dudes dig holes, then I am called to do it with vigilance, as ridiculous as that may sound.
My second mission is to learn to use my time wisely and to get involved now, while I have the chance. Though I should have a better idea of how this can be played out after meeting with the pastor at the church I have begun going to, I know already that my decision to get involved will make all the difference in the world during these nine months of purgatory.
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